Im stressed out,going through depression.I cannot cope up with the
environment around me and my studies.It is for sure that im goin to
flunk this year.My future seems bleak.I call home and my parents give
me support but this is not enough,I still cant find peace.
Then I keep pondering until I realize this.
I've become cruel in a way that I'm ever ready to retaliate
for a stupid cause.The ego in me is enormous.I look into the
mirror and see someone else.
This devil underneath my skin is turning me into a beast.
When I was just a little kid I used to pray before I was off to bed.
I used to prostrate three times every night.I remember myself
always walking on the left side of the prayerflags.
During those days,it was very gruesome for me to kill a dieing ant.
With faith in the mighty god,I would visit every monastery.
But now,to be frank,gradually bhuddism is fading away from me.
The thangkas my mom gave me are locked in my closet.I hardly take
out my shoes while entering the altar.I only pray when im in a
thick soup but what good does that do me.
Smoking and drinking used to be scandalous,not anymore.
This flashback made me see my U-turn in life.But its ok,
there is still ample of time left,let me start anew..
To all those who are searching for peace in your mind,
never forget who you are,where you belong,what you do..........
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